I do !!! Absolutely Love myself!

“It’s not your job to like me.. it’s mine”- Bryon Katie

” I love you” .. easy to say this to someone else. Can you say this to yourself?

This can be the most comfortable thing to say for some, but for some it may be the most difficult thing to say. Why is it so  difficult to love yourself?

It has taken me a long time to now comfortably say that I love myself. I can use the excuse that there have been people in my life who have made me feel “not good enough”. But the truth would be that probably I never felt good enough about myself. Did I accept that its ok to make mistakes, that its ok to not always be perfect, that its ok if I was not the best at whatever I did, that its ok if somebody appeared to be better than me. I don’t think I did. I always felt that I had to be like her or her. I don’t think I ever acknowledged myself for my strengths, my wins.  If I couldn’t see the “unique” me , how could anyone else??

I now am grateful for who I am , for the family I have, for the friends I have and for being “Me” . Yes I absolutely love myself !!!!!

The first man in my life..

My dad! I feel that I have been so fortunate to have a man like him as my father. Its been a year since he left us physically, but he will always remain in our hearts!

Even till his end when he was no longer the physically or mentally strong man that he used to be, when I hugged him or even sat besides him, I felt he was my pillar of strength. His priority in life had always been his family. His love for his children was absolutely unconditional. His self respect always stayed intact no matter what the circumstances were. In spite of being deprived of even the basic necessity of love as a child, he grew up to be a fountain of love. He never thought twice when it came to providing us the best of what he could afford.

My journey as a coach helped me come to peace with this loss. No, this does not mean that I don’t have days where I think about him and miss him terribly and maybe even cry . It just means that I can finish crying and then bring myself to accept that he is in a peaceful state and that he fulfilled his purpose in life and now its time for me to fulfill mine.

Life Coach !

Even after I knew that I needed to do something in terms of a career, it took a long to come to decide what it would be. I wanted to do something that I would look forward to doing everyday. Giving this a lot of thought and in discussing this with my sister (who is also my soul mate), I decided that I was going to become a life coach.

I think I have in a way been one even before I started this journey. I have found that people have always trusted me with their personal issues and I have always been able to “feel” what they were going through. Together with my sister, we looked at a few schools. I think I was meant to be at ICA (International Coach Academy) and so I ended up registering there. I would like to acknowledge my husband for trusting me in what I wanted to do.

Once I started my training at ICA, I was sure that this is what I have always wanted to do !

“The first step is the most important. It is the most crucial and the most effective as it will initiate the direction you have chosen.”
― Steve Backley

The first step

Me write a blog? really?? I had never even given it a thought. I was happy being a wife and a mother of two and felt comfortable in my comfort zone. I never believed that I had the potential to do anything other than take care of my family.

Was I using that as an excuse to not get up and fulfill the dreams I had, face the challenges I feared, come out of my comfort zone? For the longest time life continued and I just flowed along. It took one major incident in my life to shake me up and get me thinking about  what I was doing. What was my purpose in life? why did I not choose to dream big ? why did I not have goals that I wanted to achieve for myself?why did I not feel the need to love myself along with loving my family?

I believe that everything happens when it is meant to happen but I also believe that you have to want it to happen, for it to happen. There.. started my first step into a new journey..